“I understand the impulse: the impulse to want to put out your hand and want someone to be there at the end of your reach. To want someone to be close to. To want to kiss or touch, even if it’s wrong. The point is, you can’t control these feelings. Even if they’re wrong, they’re still there.”—Dawson’s Creek (via quotewhore)
i am sick as a dog. my car is broken, and more than likely need hundreds of dollars of repairs… AGAIN. (this happened back in May, except it was thousands) i went to DC yesterday and it rained, so my first trip there ever was awful. got completely LOST in Alexandria/Fairfax. yesterday was hell, but i was with my boo, so it wasn’t too too bad.
now today i have to RUSH to shower and get ready, because i have to call a tow truck to take my car to get fixed… hopefully. and hopefully… i can get it back tomorrow. that would entirely ROCK MY WORLD. UGH. i hate grown up life sometimes. and i really hate that my dad treats me like i am 5 years old when this type of thing happens. i am allowed to say this sucks, because it does! it doesn’t mean i am trying to change anything, and it doesn’t mean i am cowarding out, what it means is that i know the situation blows donkey dick, therefore i am voicing that. god damn, i don’t need a lecture. WHATever. he pisses me off a lot lately.
okay, enough ranting, time to go shower and call a tow truck.
i am going to an old friend’s drag show tonight… my ex is going to be there. we haven’t seen each other since our last blow up about a month and a half ago. and she recently found out that i’m seeing someone else. and she has flown off the handle. my new better half is completely uncomfortable with me going and the ex being there… but i have to face it sooner rather than later. and i have to prove to myself that there are no feelings left. a good friend will be there as support to me. i don’t have a doubt in my mind that i will be fine… i just don’t want any conflicts. so now i’m worried.
I think I have become addicted to this thing. I reblog a million pictures and stuff a day. But it is all things that either make me smile, or have specific meaning, or that really make me think about things. Or I just like the pictures. Hahahahahaha.